Looking

Stereotypically speaking,

Looking back is done in sorrow or anger
Looking around is done in fear
Looking forward is done with humility and hope
Looking up is done in faith

You cannot change the past. Most people who bring it up the most often are trying to control people by controlling their narrative of it.

You can create the future. Do it with hope and with faith. Being a crusader may make you feel great about yourself, but obeying the Spirit of Life in Christ Jesus will change the world around you into the Kingdom of Heaven. You don’t need to wait until the end to lift up your head –

“Then there will be signs in the sun, moon, and stars; and there will be anguish on the earth among nations bewildered by the roaring sea and waves. People will faint from fear and expectation of the things that are coming on the world, because the celestial powers will be shaken. Then they will see the Son of Man coming in a cloud with power and great glory. But when these things begin to take place, stand up and lift up your heads, because your redemption is near!”
(Luke 21:25-28 Holman Christian Standard Bible ®©)