One thing that slows the process of growing in the knowledge of our God is the resistance we offer to the process of allowing Him to come to know us. We hide our feelings and our failures like Adam and Eve hid in the garden after becoming aware of good and evil. Our shame and fear of failure make us want to stay insulated from the probing and provoking and the loving of His Spirit.
Surrender! Give Him all of your keys. Give Him your past and your future and everything in between.